Sunday, January 24, 2010

Post from Shantaram

I am on page 388 of my book and I am not even half way through. It is amazing so far and I recommend it to everyone. Currently my Mom and Dad, Jeff, Jeff's Dad, and I are all reading it. I hope that they are enjoying it as much as I am! I also hope that the rumors are true and that Johnny Depp is going to play Lin in the Movie. We will have to wait and see!

I couldn't have found p275 more true:
"A German cab driver might be pleased that a foreigner had learned to speak German. He might even say that he was pleased. Or say nothing at all. The same might be true of a French cab driver, or an American, or an Australian. But and Indian will be so pleased that if he likes something else about you -- your eyes, or your smile, or the way you react to a beggar at the window of his cab --he'll feel bonded to you instantly. He'll be prepared to do things for you, go out of his way, put himself at risk, and even do dangerous or illegal things. If you've given him an address he doesn't like, such as the Palace, he'll be prepared to wait for you, just to be sure that your safe. You could come out an hour later, and ignore him completely, and he would smile and drive away, happy to know that no harm has come to you."
This is something that is special about India. If you make someone happy and show them that you are trying to learn and understand their culture it will take you a long way. Because I asked the price of the ride in Hindi, the price was lower and he smiled the whole way home. I asked him to stop at the subzi wala so I could get some veggies on the way home, and he waited until I was finished, pulled a U turn so I didn't have to walk more than 2 feet with my bags, U turned again and took me home. I have had many people stop and wait, or ensure that I get to the place that I need to go by asking for directions 30 times on the way. The service in India is incomparable to anything else I have ever experienced.

Hinglish

There is something endearing to the broken Hinglish that I speak to my maid. She once told my landlady and my roommate that I confuse here, but I think we are working through that. Seeing as I am usually the only person home when she comes to cook, I have learned all my veggies and numbers enough to say that I would like bhindi and chaar roti for dinner.

I love the way that she gets disappointed and scolds me when I put my water bottles in the fridge because she believes that cold water will make me sick. I also love that when food has gone off she shakes her hand, and then her head while gesturing to the trash and saying, "no, crap-o." I want to ask her where she learned that word.

This Is India

The longer that I live here, the more I have come to love a saying commonly used among locals and expats equally, "This Is India" It is used to express, the love/hate experiences occur on a daily basis, well knowing that if you were anywhere else in the world you would not be dealing with, that you just have to shake your head at and laugh.

I spent the day today doing the laundry and cleaning my room. I washed my sheets, hung them out to dry, a pigeon shat on them - I am currently washing them for a second time... This is India.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Love/Hate

The more you read about it and the more time you spend here you learn that what is written about India is nothing but true. It is a powerful and grand place filled with contradictions that will leave you conflicted and confused.

I came across this quick read that goes out to my Parents since they will be the next brave souls to venture west. I especially like how it ends with the commonly understood love/hate relationship. I don't know anyone who really has just said I love India without being followed by a but...

Even myself. I love India. I do...buuuuuuut...

http://goindia.about.com/od/planningyourtrip/qt/indiaarriving.htm

2010: A New Decade

There are few ways to go about the New Years Resolution. There's the good ol' 'I am going to change my life around this year... grand promenade, open a new savings account, buy a new organizer, running sneakers, go to a jazzercise class once...and then never again. There's the silent keep-to-yourself planners who commit to a set of goals, power through and see what they can accomplish. Then there are those in the middle of the spectrum where I seem to be. I feel the need to tell people what my new hopes and dreams are for the new year, knowing that I am motivated by the fright of failing to accomplish that which I have made public.

This mindset could also be the same reason why I have somehow found my way to India. Julie Keech - if you still have the one and only copy of my 10 year plan that I snail mailed to Japan almost 4 years ago, I would love to see it...

So here it is folks, it's not too grand but it is a start

Quinnen's 2010 Resolutions:
Take Hindi Lessons and become conversational before leave India
Don't let comfort or discomfort stop me from exploring all the options that Delhi has to offer
Dance more often and maybe join a Class
Read more, Watch fewer Movies

The Abnormal is Normal

I received 2 Christmas cards today at my office one from Stacy and one from Mr. and Mrs. Spencer. Mrs Spence, mentioning that you have enjoyed reading my posts sparked the guilt of blog abandonment that I have needed over the last month to overcome the uncreative mental block that I have been feeling recently. So this one if for you!

Last week I bought my first plane ticket to come home in March for Jeff's cousin's wedding. I am super excited to go home and be around friends, family and to get a break from Delhi. But as soon as my finger hit the confirm button another feeling that I wasn't expecting also came along...anxiety. I think that part of the reason that I have not been posting as much is because the abnormal is now normal.

It really hit me when I have had a slew of visitors in the last month. Erin G came down from Nepal and stayed the weekend, Martin was here from Bangalore and Ricky our new finance guy came in from the Canada office. I took Erin and Ricky to Old Delhi and was in no way phased by the swarms of people, I haggled right back with the rickshaw driver and realized that I had lost my slight awkwardness of navigating around a new city. Don't get me wrong, there is still a lot that I don't know about Delhi, but I think that I am finally developing my 'I belong' confident swagger that keeps locals from messing with you.

I say developing, because with India -- as soon as you get too cocky, it will chew you up and spit you out right back to the place that you belong.

When thinking about something such as identity it is always interesting to pay close attention to the semantics of your dialogue. For instance, I was meeting with Ricky talking about Indians in general, and said, "yeah, we..." immediately I paused, looked in my mental mirror and said...yup, still totally American, I should not be using the 'w' word yet.

With this change in perspective you can start to understand why I am a little nervous to come home. Have I picked up some really strange habits that I don't notice? I have already been called out on the fact that the infamous head wobble is working its way into my repertoire. What is the head-wobble you ask? Just wait for that post I am waiting for a good time to launch it.

When I come back, if we happen to run into each other, please keep in mind that I have been in a very different place. If I happen to push you, cut in line, spit or snot rocket in front of you, drive like a maniac (please keep me away from the driver seat), or stand too close; just know that in due time I will adjust back to the American social mores so don't be too harsh.



Christmas in India

Christmas in India is tough unless you are in Goa. Even though my office and friends are very understanding and sweet, there is something that cannot be expalined about how Christmas in New England is just -- in the air. An energy, the excitement, the jolly spirits, the giving and the carols.

I tried my best. I woke up normal time, went to work wearing a christmas hat with flashing lights, handed out stocking and danced to Christmas music. But laughing with your family and friends around you in your comfortable warm house with snow falling outside, lights all around and spicy aromas of warm apple/pecan/pumpkin pie filling the air can never be replaced.

I hope that everyone had an amazing Holiday weekend and know that I was thinking about all of you! Thanks for the Christmas cards and wishes!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Why I love my Flatmate

“Alex, do you have any Toilet Paper? Saabs and I ran out?”

“Yeah, here you go. Communist Toilet Paper, it is like wiping with newspaper.” “Have fun!”




a few minutes later…

While in the Kitchen waiting for my tea to boil Alex asked me, “will you sing a song?”

I busted out in ‘Oh when the Saints,’ because it has been in my head for the last few hours and for the dramatics I started doing an altered running man marching dance while he continued to cook his chicken-salami and laugh.

He said, “If I move to America, I hope that all Americans are like you.” I said, “Why so you can have songs and dance on cue?” He goes, “yeah, and when I return back to Finland and my friends ask me what are Americans like, are they like how they are in the movies…I am going to say yes!”

“What does that mean…”

“Don’t worry, it’s a good thing.”

“Ok, I am going to go back upstairs with my communist Toilet Paper and my Tea...Oh when the Saints…”

Always Tripping

I am one giant mass constantly off balance with no control or say in the matter. I could attribute this to a few factors. Such as my theory that I have a messed up equilibrium or perception due to my one near-sighted eye and one far-sighted eye. I don't know if it is my learned confident walk that makes me look ahead and not down; or that at times I am just too lazy to lift my feet over impending objects. Mostly I blame it on the unfinished roads, gaping holes in the sidewalks, loose gravel, gross spills, animals, and traffic that you have to avoid that makes me unable to keep my face from plummeting downward.

Battle wounds:
Deep fist sized bruise on my butt from falling down a flight of stairs at my house
Lost toe nail - Right foot, second toe next to my big one...

...and the most recent one happened while trying to take a picture at sunset. I was looking through my camera when I stepped off a curb, my flip flop tucked under itself and I scraped off the bottom of one of my toes.

and now you know why I rave so much about my toe protecting, amazing grip Keen shoes - I should wear them more often.


Thursday, November 12, 2009

Todays Weather Forecast

20°C | °F

Current: Smoke
Wind: E at 10 km/h
Humidity: 46%Thu


Mostly Sunny
26°C | 14°C

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

The Hog’s Ride

Just a normal day, hopping into a rickshaw to get home after work. I am riding on the IIT flyover when I see two guys on a motorbike...Normal…with what looks like a dead hog in the middle of them…Not Normal. The guy in the back has the hog on its back arched over his lap and he seems to be tickling its neck when all of the sudden the thing starts kicking and wiggling. The driver tries to maintain focus and balance as this thing is thrashing about and the little man holding it is desperately trying to calm it before they all topple over. I was transfixed. I watched helplessly and could not turn away. Were they going to crash, would my auto stop in time to avoid hitting them? Does no one else find this strange or disturbing?

Finally, somehow the man was able to suppress the hog and the driving went back to normal and they proceeded out of my sight.

These are the days that I appreciate how strange of a place that I am in.

What Do You Mean?

This question seems to haunt my life here. I think that I am getting along fine until I realize how many times a day I ask this question. You don’t realize how much you are learning on a daily basis even when you are not trying to. India just bombards your mind and senses and it is no wonder that I am so mentally exhausted by the end of the day even when I didn’t think that I accomplished much.

I look around the office and no one is working and upon inquiring I find out that it is another holiday. What this time? Oh, it is some Guru/God/famous persons’ birthday/death/great accomplishment. If you haven’t noticed the trend in my blogs Indians are always celebrating something, and I am always goggling/wiking to figure out what the heck is going on. I think it is just as an excuse not to work… Just yesterday I found out that they used to celebrate thanksgiving in the office. I asked if they knew what Thanksgiving was…Nope…like I mentioned just another excuse to celebrate.

In a normal day I am lost and confused at least 20 separate times and need to ask for clarifications. I constantly break Indian nuances and superstitions and they just assume that I know these things. For instance, you are not supposed to hand someone scissors because if you do, it means that you will fight in the future. What I thought was a simple question: What is the Indian equivalent of a Sophomore and Junior? A 10 minute discussion ensues.

I recently ordered a book called “Speaking to Indians.” Chapter 1: Yes means Yes, or Maybe, or No…how to tell

I was a Speech Communication Major in college for goodness sake. I studied small group and interpersonal communication. In the states I am clear and concise. In India, no matter how many times I repeat myself, speak slowly, and make analogies to my main point – the Indian mind cannot grasp my intensions and I can’t decipher their codes and hidden meaning either. Makes for difficult meetings, and boy is that frustrating.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Happy Birthday Grandma!

Today is my Grandma's 87th Birthday, and she is an amazing woman! She inspired me to travel from an early age by enchanting me with stories of following Tennis around the world. I admire her adventurous spirt and I never tire of hearing about how she helicoptered over the glaciers of Alaska only a few years back against warnings and recommendations that she should not. Hopefully one day I will get to do the same. Happy Birthday Grandma! I love you!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Brutally Honest

Sometimes the honesty is nice. Especially when it is a compliment because you know it it genuine. But sometimes it is just too much. Questions that Americans would find too personal are just openly asked, such as, "Are you married? No, Why Not?" Although not directly asked to me yet, it is apparently not rude to ask how much a person makes for their salary.

I have been told, "Oh, you don't look so good today." or "When you were wearing the sari I noticed that you are skinny. You don't look that way at work, you must just wear big clothes."

The comments on the floor to me today were, "Why is your nose so red?" Ummmm...the weather is changing and my skin is dry...awk #1. Then followed later in the day with, "Oh, what happened to your face?" (gesturing to my chin). Oh, that's just a zit...awk #2. Really. Can't you see that it is just a pimple, can't I be allowed to have one without being called out at work!



Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Drugs, Techno Music and Serial Killers

Wondering what I am going to write about in this one? The other option for this blog title was going to be... "Nothing Like a Serial Killer to Ruin your Fun."

These are just three of the things that Goa has been in the news for recently. I went to Goa on Diwali weekend to escape the non-stop booming of fireworks and firecrackers that continue day and night for the entire weekend. It is a time for you to be with your family, and if you are not, well, it is just really loud.

The night before I was about to leave for my weekend in Goa, my flatmate came into my room and causally asked me if I had gotten a chance to read the news article that he sent to me at work..nope. He strongly suggested that I did because Goa was in the news, and not for a good reason. That night it was Thursday. It turns out that since the Sunday before there were 10 people killed in Goa, one of the smallest states in India known for its drug scene, hippies, beaches, and all night long beach techno music parties.

I was not planning on going away for any of the above reasons except for the beach and some relaxation from the busy city, but I also didn't want to live in fear that if I fell asleep that I would be strangled. I immediately called Alison and suggested that we be open to canceling the trip if we didn't feel completely comfortable and if I couldn't find out more information. I didn't know if it was locals, tourists or just the media making this a big deal.

After hours of scouring the net, I learned that it was three related murders of locals, two suicides and another murdering of a family that was involved in some kind of bad situation. No tourists. Didn't make it any easier to read about, but we decided to go, avoid the parties and just be very aware and cautious. We also were going off season and not staying in the party-central area.

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I am glad that we made the decision that we did. We walked the beaches and relaxed and it was so nice to swim and get some exercise. We ate fresh fish and met some great people at our hotel. It was so quite in comparison to Delhi and just being there made my muscles relax.

I bought a ton of those Aladdin pants and they are my new favorite thing...and the best part was that I rented a scooter for the long weekend and drove around everywhere we needed to go with Alison on back. I was a little nervous at first since I have never driven a moped or motorcycle before, I had someone on back, I was on the wrong side of the road and I was dodging cattle left and right, but I picked it up quickly and I am definitely investing in one when I return back to the states. To have one in Delhi would just be a death wish.

Posing with our Scooter
Elephant at the Spice Plantation



Thursday, October 15, 2009

Diwali

Yes, it is yet again another holiday. Diwali, pronounced D-vul-E. The festival of lights, where streets are transformed into pieces of art and there are candles glowing and fireworks cracking throughout the night. Diwali is celebrated in north India similarly to how we celebrate Christmas. It is a big production with lots of gifts and shopping and holiday cheer. I have been avoiding the markets for the last two weeks because on top of the fact that there are tons of people in India, they also leave everything until the last minute. Think of the worst, crowded, chaotic mall you have ever been in during the holidays...now multiply that by 9.

We had our office celebration today and luckily the women took care of me and dressed me in a Sari, again. I better learn how to put one on before the novelty wears off. We worked for the morning, and then we had an elaborate Puja (prayer) set up. They all said that it was small, but the time and efforts that people put into setting them up was anything less than amazing. They did the puja, lit the candles, incense, prayed, and then we all went out for a nice lunch at the Hayatt.

It is so funny to me because every time that I go to one of these nice hotels I get so confused. It is almost like you are not in India anymore. There are all these foreigners and they are perfectly taken care of. You can tell that they feel like they are being really adventurous and getting out to see the real india, but they will see it only long enough to start to feel bad before they run back to their protective 5 star hotel bubble. Then they catch a glimpse of me and their look completely changes. I am American too, in the same hotel, yet wearing a sari, and hanging out with a group of 25 indians. Joking, hugging and wishing happy Diwali. They now are starting at me too. Wondering who I am. My co-workers comment on it, and I just laugh, because the lesson that I have gained is that I will not fit in anywhere while I am in India. But don't worry, I don't mind it, because now I stare too! I only notice it when I am around other foreigners. When I see someone who doesn't belong, I find myself so mesmerized and wondering what the heck they are here that I don't realize that I am starting until I am 5 minutes deep.









for my EFers!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

picture time

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Karva Chauth

Today was another festival. It was called Karva Chauth. It is the day where the women fast for the long life of their husbands. So all of the women in my office today came in all dressed up in fancy suits with their bindis and bangles and looking gorgeous. I commented and they said that it was because of the special day. The women are not supposed to even drink water if they are observing properly. When the moon rises they are supposed to pray to the moon and then look at there husband while they are having their first drink of water for the day.

One of the girls brought in an extra pair or bangles for me and it matched my outfit perfectly. They are sparkly and made of glass and every time I moved they would jingle. It was really distracting and hard to get used to. Everyone was talking about marriage all day long and their husbands or wives all day long. One of the guys in the office noticed that I was wearing the bangles and he said, "do you like the Indian culture?" I said yes, and then he said, "do you want to marry an Indian man?" I responded..."I don't think my boyfriend would be to happy if I did." They all laughed and they are just so amused that I am willing to try all of the things in their culture.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Fat Fee and Gasping Lungs

Just like when on a long flight at high altitude your feet start to swell…well mine have yet to return to a normal state after the long drive at high altitude to Shimla this weekend.

Highlights of Shimla:

  1. Checked off my first India page in the “1000 Things to See Before you Die” book.
  2. Seeing a man with an entire refrigerator strapped to his back, brand new in the box with the new customers following behind.
  3. Horseback riding up a mountain
  4. Spending 1.5 hours in the local Police Station

Shilma is a hill station north of Delhi by a 10 hour car ride, longer if you hit traffic. It took 12 hours up and 9 on the way down. Gravity and flying down the hills helped the return situation. It was settled by the British in the 1840s. It looked like a little colonial village transplanted to the hills of rural China. Figures that it would look that way since I wasn’t too far from the boarder. It was much cooler than Delhi and I def didn’t pack properly or warm enough.

If it seems like I have been traveling a lot recently, you are correct. It is the holiday season here in India and Friday was Gandhi’s birthday so it was a national holiday. I found myself waking up at 5:30 after I was up until 2:00am while Todd hacked into my computer and tried to remotely fix my still sadly broken iPhone. Wha! I jumped into the car with the brother of the driver that we had last weekend and we took off of a long journey north of the city and into the hills.

When we hit the hills we started winding and skidding up the switchbacks flying by huge trucks and squeezing into places that I never though possible. We had only 5 near-death experiences and I was really wishing that I had a seatbelt. I know – not what you want to hear mom but at least he wasn’t wearing one either. Funny how I am glad that he was not wearing one. If he was and I was not I would feel much more vulnerable. I find a disturbing comfort in the fact that if we crash he would be launched further than me, so in my mind he is going to make sure to drive safely.

To make the driving situation even better, half-way up the mountains it starts torrentially down pouring. I was distracted by the side window and trying to see the sights through it when Alex started to ask me, “what you call those things that fall from the sky, the little balls of snow.” I reluctantly said, “hail?” “Yeah,” he said, “that’s what it is doing right now.” I looked at the huge droplets and sure enough it was hailing.

As soon as we pulled into the city our Driver Amrik asked us where we were staying…like I said we didn’t really plan this out too well or have a guide so we said we didn’t know and to have someone recommend one. Either a good move or dangerous one depending on the locals deals with the hotels. You can get scammed pretty easily this way, but we took a chance. Two guys, one in his 40 and maybe his father took our stuff and started leading us up these tiny stairways and through the streets of the markets. We had to walk quickly to keep up and make sure that they didn’t take off with our stuff. Luckily they stopped and waited when the flow of people would allow and made sure that the huffing and puffing tourists were still behind them. This is a good time to remind you that we were at a significantly high altitude and my asthma and Alex’s smoker lungs were both struggling.

We tried about 4 hotels and most of them either didn’t have space or they only had the super expensive presidential suites. It was a holiday long weekend and the pickings were slim. We finally decided on a place that had a great view but only a bucket shower (you pour the water out of the spicket and use a pouring cup to shower). Checking in is always something I dread. You have to have your passport and go through an interrogation…where are you from, when did you get here what is your passport number, visa number, husband’s or father’s name, relation to the person you are with…married…to avoid awkward stares and judgments. It was per Saabira’s advice. Then the next step, your address. “Delhi? You live here?” Citizenship – American. The hotel guy said, “no, you can’t have a Dehli address…are you Indian?” “no, American, but I live here.” “No you can’t, you are Indian then?” “No I am American, but I live here.” This went on for far too long and is always more difficult than needs to be.

We were the most excited for Jakhu hill the highest point in Shimla where there is a temple to the monkey god Hanuman. We struggled up the climb while men in their 50’s where shuffling by with grace and their tongues still in their mouths. The top was well worth it with the morning light hitting the orange and red flags. It was also perfectly accentuated with tons of menacing monkeys. Locals actually carried sticks to bang on the ground and scare them away. I was convinced that they were going to jump and attack me and for the first time I was regretting not getting my third rabies shot.

There was one local kid about 17 years old who was obsessed with Alex and me. He introduced himself and then his father, and then asked if we would take his picture. After we did he shook each of our hands followed by a bear-hug. I wasn’t expecting that at all and he kind of knocked the wind out of me. Later in the day he found us again heading down the hill. He grabbed my hand again and started jogging down the mountain. I started running with him at first, but fearing crashing on my face I was able to wriggle my hand out of his. I needed a distraction to stop running before I tripped so I asked him if I could take his picture. He immediately bear-hugged me again and then asked for a kiss on the cheek. I thought it was strange, but humored him and then he turned his other cheek and pointed to it for Alex to kiss! He did. The boy was so happy, that he laughed and went off running down the mountain smiling. I don’t know what happened there, but I think that we made his year

At this point it was only 9:30 so we called our driver and he took us to Kurfi where we could see a higher vantage point. I turned out to be a huge tourist trap and before long Alex and I were seated on horses and headed up a hill. Don’t ask. It was a fun experience trudging up the side of a muddy cliff. Alex’s horse was old and had to basically be dragged while mine led the way and ran into other horses almost knocking me off a few times. All in a day’s fun.

When we got the to top as always there were tons and tons of people asking to take photos of us. At this point we both decided that it was just that people were curious and there was no real harm. Right as we were leaving tired and ready to go home one guy asked for a photo. I said yes, and the next thing I know there were 15 people around Alex and I posing. I had my camera bag on my back…can you guess where this is going…when the picture was done I went to call the driver and my camera bag was unzipped and my phone (my flatmates borrowed phone) was gone.

That was the first time that I felt violated here. I had let down my guard since I had been in so many pictures and there were no repercussions. I was just frustrated and more than anything just felt really guilty for losing my flatmates phone. It was our only contact with our driver and every single car here is white or silver. Luckily I have pretty good attention to detail and was able to hike through three parking lots and identify our car.

We tried to go to the Kurfi police to fill out a report, but they were very unhelpful and didn’t believe me. They kept saying, “you lost it? Are you sure it didn’t fall out on the ride? What about your driver, could he have snatched it?” No, no, no, it was stolen! I tried to call it with Alex’s phone and whoever had it turned it off so I couldn’t get through. I then had to drive down the mountain and go to the Dhalli police station. I walked into a room of 7 people sitting around, only 2 in uniform and told them the story. Together they came up with the right questions and had my write out on a piece of paper so they could type it up. They kept saying that they were going to start the investigation tomorrow and that I had to come back up and it was going to be difficult because there were no suspects to identify. There was an obvious communication block. I didn’t expect to see the phone again, I just wanted an official and stamped piece of paper saying that it was stolen to take to the phone company and to insurance if anything could be covered. 1.5 hours later I left with a stamped paper, and 7 new friends who were apologizing for the experience.

On the way home we decided to drive up to Summer Hill where Gandhi used to live when he was in Shimla. On the hill is the gorgeous old Viceregal Lodge that is part of the Indian Institute of Advanced Studies. It is where the old British Government would spend the summer months. 6 months in Shimla and 6 months in Bombay/Mumbai. It was just too hot in Mumbai in the summers so they headed to the hills. I really wanted to see this place, but we left Shimla at 6 am and the place didn’t open until 9:30. Luckily our driver picked up a local guide on the way and he talked his way into showing us around. He came in and gave us a tour since he convinced the guards that we were his visitors. He showed us around and didn’t even ask for any money in return. What a nice way to end a great trip.

We left the weekend on such a high note feeling rejuvenated by the mountains and fresh air, aka the light headedness of altitude sickness…no it was so beautiful and an amazing experience and I would love to go back there in the future. But for now, back to the hustle, bustle and pollution of the busy city.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Thoughts from the Car

It hits me at strange times. I am sitting in a car on the ride up to Shimla readin my book and not knowing whether the main character is really dead or not. At this heavy section of my book I feel that I need a break to digest, so I took a deep breath in and look around to see my surroundings. India. I look over to Alex asleep in the seat next to me thinking how funny it is that I am here. Who would have thought that in all this time I would end up living in India. Making new friends through random circumstances and feeling strangly comforted by the lack of familiarity.